Vent

So, I have been thinking about this post for a long time. I have just felt the urge to sit down and vent. I have been so stressed out with school stuff, and I have just been very overwhelmed with everything. I'm not used to my students, to the teachers I work with, or just the fact that I'm a new teacher without any experience. I thought about doing this everyday last week, but for some reason, I just couldn't make myself sit down to write. Then, Sunday morning in Sunday School, I had a revelation as to why I couldn't do it.

Our lesson was out of James 5:7-12--be patient in suffering. This passage ate me alive. This, my friends, is the exact reason why I couldn't sit down last week and vent. It all came together as David and Tara were speaking on these verses. I know I'm not the only one that has felt this way; I felt like there was a huge mirror in front of me, and I was just staring at myself because this was exactly what I needed to hear.

It seems like I have just moaned and groaned about everything that has been going on with my job. It has been hard getting used to sharing a room with two other teachers, getting used to new procedures, and getting caught up since I was hired late. I have felt like everything I have done has been with a negative attitude and a negative heart. I have a great opportunity in front of me to really minister to young children, to their parents, and to the teachers I work with. I just have not realized it. God has placed me in this position for a reason. I cannot moan and groan about it anymore because I KNOW this is what I am supposed to be doing.

My goal from now on is to do everything with a loving heart and for God's glory--not mine, but His.

"Do not grumble against one another, brothers, so that you may not be judged; behold, the Judge is standing at the door."--James 5:9